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Precious Gem

I saw someone today that I knew since childhood. We don’t talk and haven’t talked in many many years.

As I smiled at her and answered some of her questions, I felt two feelings in my heart.

  1. Feeling 1: OMG RUN! She’s going to judge you and your situation. Be embarrassed.
  2. Feeling 2: What is there to be embarrassed about? Life happens. I am a treasure. A precious flower and loved by God. My struggles are not to be ashamed of but to glorify God.

I decided to go with feeling two and in me rose a confidence and peace that I haven’t had in a long time. You know when you just get tired of feeling sorry for yourself. When you realize that nothing is wrong with you and that your pain and suffering is just part of the journey. While writing this, I have hope that my suffering is coming to an end. No, not my life, but this chapter of suffering and pain is coming to an end. I learned so many lessons along the way. I am not who I use to be, even when I thought I was perfect and amazing. I am finally human. A human with feelings and an ear to hear the Lord.

I can finally smile from my heart because I am no longer concerned about how I will get to the other side. I have my moments of sorrow and despair but I know I can never ever hit rock bottom again.

This time around, I am stronger and wiser. Just like Apostle Paul , I know what it’s like when things are going somewhat well and when times get rough. I know I will survive because of Christ and his Spirit that orders my steps.

That doesn’t mean I’m going volunteer information, just for the sake of blabbering my mouth (rolls eyes). What it does mean, is that at the end of the day my life is not defined by just the good or just the bad but is a collective narrative of MOI.

I am celebrating my life TODAY! I refuse to wait until things seem to be better. Life is a gift and my life is precious. You have to remember that even when things seem to be falling apart, destruction all around and disappointment wants to fill your heart with stone. It is not your burden to carry alone. Everyone has a story and you’d be surprised to hear what they have gone through as well.

YOU ARE A PRECIOUS TREASURE!

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The Route to Maturity

Self-pity is a big fat tantrum that  leads to depression because you lost your inner compass. You made a detour that lead to a path with no light at the end.

You are now open to negative influence because with darkness around, you don’t have light to see the origin of anything that comes your way. You walk around blind in a pit of self-pity.

And when no one turns around to look at you and validate your woes, you decide to do whatever it takes….

Whatever it takes to get noticed.

Little did you know that the cure for self-pity is responsibility. It’s growing up and accepting the things you can’t fix and fixing the things you can. It’s finding another route. It’s finding the bridge back to your main route. And when you find it, there is light and you can now see what exactly you are up against.

You are in control, more than you know. You have a voice even if you think no one is listening and you can change YOUR world, one day at a time. You decide what you choose to see each day.

Happiness in Christ

Jesus, YOU are the light within a dark world.

I have to say that for the first time in my life, despite the circumstances, I am happy.

I am loved, cared for and my life means something. What makes it even more special is that my worth comes from outside of myself and comes from the creator of all things. The one who is higher than All. HE loves me.

Finding true joy in JESUS. Each day a journey towards HIM. Looking forward to the lessons to be learned along the way and hope that I can share them with all of you.

 

God Bless.