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Begging Vs Pleading

I woke up this morning and my first thoughts were on begging and pleading. I rolled over in bed asking myself, what in the world does pleading your case mean and why am I thinking about this?

I heard over and over again, in church and in songs, about pleading the blood. However, I never really fully understood the concept, so I looked up the definition. Pleading is a legal term. When someone is pleading in court they come with a statement or list of inquiries and complaints to a judge. The Judge has the power to execute a final judgement based on the evidence and facts presented. After reading that, my next question was ” So how does this apply to prayer?”

I just left that question to simmer while I took care of my morning duties but when I sat down, I started to pray. It was after the prayer ended that God revealed to me what it meant.

I’m quite sure you can do a google search and find many articles on this topic but for me, it’s just this simple: begging, throwing tantrums at God only shows Him that we don’t trust Him and are full of fear and anxiety. However, when someone is pleading their case, they have already identified the problem. They have identified the Judge: they truly believe that this judge has the power to help them with their situation. They believe that the judge is fair aka a fair hearing. They can approach the judge with confidence of being heard and not turned away, no matter how big or small the matter is.

We must believe that God is sovereign: all powerful and all knowing. We must believe He hears us and is fair. We must believe that He is loving and kind. We must believe that He has the power and the grace to take notice of us and our struggles. This way of thinking keeps us level headed and secure. We are not putting trust in ourselves but the Great Judge who has highest wisdom.

 

You Are God’s Treasure

Love produces change. Cruelty to oneself just makes you feel guilty and icky. It is self-sabotage. When you love and embrace your worth, you are able to make better choices. Not out of obligation, guilt or fear but out of deep inner conviction. You stop settling and start wanting the best with humility. You will begin to nurture, love and encourage yourself like a treasured friend. You will enforce healthy boundaries and learn how to say no with strength and confidence.

If you are a temple where God dwells, we all know people take great care of sacred places and items. How much more are we to care for our whole selves: body, mind and spirit. Holiness transforms a person completely and holiness says: “I must not be defiled.” Cruelty will defile you, so love: truly truly love.

 

Freedom In Christ

Freedom is a mentality not a condition. How do I know this? Well, the Bible touches on many points about faith and belief in God. We are not putting our mental focus on ourselves, capabilities, or circumstances but we put our faith, hope and trust in Christ who saves us from sin and the sting of death. This brings healing and freedom that self-effort cannot.

It took me two years to become who I am today. We all know that I have been alive for a couple years now (Laugh ) but what I mean is, the transformed person I am today took two years. It was a grueling process of God exposing things in my heart and then making a decision to seek God for help. At first it was hard and confusing. It was unbearable and I found myself running away from God or hiding from Him. Other times I’d get angry, throw a tantrum and say I’m doing my own thing. Lately, I have seen a big change in my response to God. I don’t hide, I don’t run and I don’t throw tantrums. I have learned the seriousness of falling on my face and seeking the Lord for guidance and healing. My mind has changed. No longer do I see things how I use to. In the past, I would be anxious and flighty. Wanting everything to be perfect and instant. But today, I understand the importance of waiting on God and perseverance. Paul says we must run the good race and fight the good fight. David encourages the saints to wait PATIENTLY on God. I have learned that blessings aren’t necessarily material like people want to force feed us today. Blessings are wrapped up in the gift of a relationship with God through Christ by the power of the Holy Spirit. Blessings are the fruit we produce as we stay connected to the vine (Christ). Blessings can be found in the little daily provisions and the little hands and feet God sends to minister to us. It’s not always about wealth, power and success. It is not about being the best or a know-it-all. It is about receiving God, walking with God and being transformed by God.

Freedom is not a condition. I’m quite sure the same people that made me feel bad for not attaining a certain status or place in life, would have the same thing to say now. Back then, I was very distraught over these things. I would try to work harder and better only to fall right back on my face. But the me now doesn’t care. Say what you want but I am where I need to be. I may not be rich, I may not have flashy things and I may not have much BUT I AM NOT THE SAME! I have changed! The Lord brought me out of my mental Egypt, took the shackles off my mind and melted the cold ice from around my heart. He dried up tears and touched my aching body. So it would be offensive and disrespectful to throw it all in God’s face because of things people say to me. It would be so offensive to throw it all in God’s face when in my mind and spirit I am at peace. I would not trade this for any amount of riches in this world. I have something…a treasure…that no one can take away! I am an asset not a liability.

I hope this encourages you, reader, to accept and have hope. If you are poor and struggling, sick and discouraged; if you feel hurt and betrayed etc. turn your focus on God. Tell Him all that bothers you. Throw your tantrums, cry, scream and yell but whatever you do, don’t turn away. God will meet you where you are and He will help you. That is a promise. Jesus said He is the bread of life and the living waters. He will quench and satisfy the longings of our soul. He will build you up and make you like a strong tree.

One day you will wake up and be at total peace. Nothing on the outside might have changed but YOU CHANGED. Don’t cling to God for material blessings. Christ is more than enough. You must be so in love with Christ that even the threat of death will not turn you away. You must be able to walk away from anything that will come between you and God. That is true freedom!

Don’t Give Up!

Last week, God sent his little hands and feet into my life to receive love. He opened my eyes to receive love without being needy for it and to appreciate without expectation.

These little hands and feet were sent by God at a specific and appointed time. I was so down in my spirit. It wasn’t depression but anger and frustration. I cried out to God, scanned His word but at the time, nothing was able to soothe my heart. God gave me instructions but at the time it made no sense. So, being the loving papa He is, He sent his little ministers to pour into my soul.

One was a smile that expressed genuine love! It touched my heart so deeply. Another was a kind word, the Lord using her as a mouth piece from heaven to encourage me to keep on going and to know that He sees me and hasn’t forgotten about me. Two times was I taken out for lunch, and spent time with people and shared laughs. It was medicine for my soul.

I thank God for each person He used. Most of all I thank Him because He is always speaking to me,  always comforting me and always guiding me. I must believe that I hear from Him, that He is a sovereign God ( A post about God’s sovereignty coming soon.) and that He truly loves me.

“Don’t give up” is what I’m hearing today. Don’t give up! Let everything go and let God establish me.

Don’t give up! Continue to seek Him, obey Him and Love Him.

The highlight of my week was when I curled up into a ball and just laid there and talked to God about everything! I got up close to my heavenly father and shared what was on my heart. I became an honest person. God sees everything so why hide it? So I told Him and He was faithful to comfort me and give me answers. His Word ( the Bible) is LIFE! He lead me to scriptures…even specific books and chapters ( I did not memorize them). So I know that He gives knowledge to those that seek Him.

Let me tell you. My journey with the Lord never leaves me bored. Tired, yes, but never bored. Laughs hysterically.

Smile.

Dear Brother…

I went to visit my younger brother who was diagnosed with autism since childhood. I tried to write a normal post but It just didn’t feel right…let’s see…

Dear Brother,

Your radiant smile is pure.

I can see and feel your love for me from your smile.

That defining moment, when I realized that everything in life is meaningless

if the people you care about and love aren’t smiling.

With joy I welcome you into my heart, you inspire me to become better, to love better and to serve better.

I am proud of you. Your accomplishments are nothing but grand. From the way you express yourself, to the quiet peace of your soul : you amaze me.

You simply be yourself, in a world that tries to conform and choke us.

I am proud of you dear brother, I’ve seen all you’ve gone through and now look at you! Marvelous creation of God! I believe in you and the future that is yours.

You touch everyone around you without even knowing. Everyone loves you.

Continue to fight baby bro, for your future. Continue to live and grow! We believe in you and we love you!

You changed me with your smile.

Love, Big Sister.

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Sibling Power! Hahaha! Unstoppable team!

He Loves Them but He Loves Me Too

Something doesn’t sit right in my soul.

For the last few months I have been thinking about how we as a society and a people love to dismiss people’s emotions. We dismiss people who are mistreated, abused, bullied and hurt. The only way we notice them is when they find some inner strength to overcome their situation. But when will someone fight for the oppressed? When will someone take notice of those who feel as if they have no voice? Why do we turn a blind eye to those that are suffering? Why do we blame them for the way they are treated and for the way they feel?

It boggles my mind. This unnecessary burden for people to be strong in the face of trials. Leaving them all alone to fight for themselves. We call them weak, insecure, etc. simply for feeling honest emotions. The Bible says that our tongues can kill. We can tear a person to pieces by what we say and do to them. So why must the burden fall on the victim?

God promised that He hears the cries of the oppressed. David felt the brunt of mistreatment in his life. Instead of beating himself up, he ran to God and expressed his pain and anger. He didn’t have to pretend to be strong! He didn’t have to pretend to have it all together. How much stress and anger do we internalize when we just shrug things off and bury them deep within our souls. Those feelings never really go away! They just sit there in the depths and corners of our hearts, festering like infected sores. We refuse to address it because we fear we might be labeled as weak, or insecure, or caring what other people think.

I promise myself from this day forward to invest my love and care to all people. Not this mushy, sentimental, shallow love that people are trying to push on us. But, life breathing love. This life breathing love contains: loving correction, encouragement, affirmation, and care.

I don’t want to be fake…looking strong and confident on the outside, but dying on the inside. I want my strength to come from inside out. I want to be free to own my feelings , good and bad and then use them for good. I don’t want to put everyone in a happy box. I want to see people for who they truly are but yet, still love them because Christ first loved me.

Stop making excuses for people! We must hold each other accountable for how we treat others. We must raise up our standards. We must not tolerate bad behavior and put all the burdens on victims. We must actively take a stand.

To  those that are feeling hurt and down trodden: run to Jesus. You do not have to do anything but hand it all to Him. He can take every pain and burden in your heart, give you insight on how to deal with the situation and send loving and kind people into your life. You do not have to settle for feeling alone or not having a voice. God will be your voice. He might reveal to you the nature of your situation, but He will never leave you there to figure it out alone or fight it yourself.

You are not alone! Jesus and many of those that loved God, were misunderstood. Just remember that God is fighting for you. God hears the cries of the oppressed. Do not think for a moment that your feelings are dismissed or unheard. He hears all of your prayers. God does not have favorites. He loves them, but He loves you too!

 

 

I am Happy!

I woke up happy today.

Last night, I went to sleep while praying. It was comforting, ending the day in God’s presence. It was nothing fancy, just directing all my thoughts and emotions to Him, expressing everything I felt.

When I woke up, I felt a sense of joy and peace. The beauty of it all was that I allowed myself to be free. I will be honest, I had people telling me to keep quiet and not to feel a certain way, but I allowed myself to feel the worst of my feelings. I never expressed them but I felt them. I was also feeling really sick in my body and allowed myself to get full rest. I slept and ate whenever I wanted. This happened for a week. There were times I tried to talk myself out of it. There were times fear of not being strong enough or not getting things done crept into my mind. However, I silenced them really quickly and went back to resting my mind and body.

There is something so powerful about complete rest. When I felt the need to worry or be anxious about anything, I heard the loving voice of God saying that He is taking care of me. Someway and somehow, God will provide all that I need.

I keep thinking about God’s sovereignty. I had almost forgotten about it, being so focused on His loving friendship and parent-like care. But we must not forget that God is King and in complete control! He has an amazing way of putting the puzzle pieces of life together. He has a way of fixing our mess and creating a happy ending. He has a way of changing hearts. I needed to believe that my prayers were heard by a powerful and mighty God. I needed to believe that He is the one that changes hearts. Sometimes we believe that our will is higher than God’s, but if we read the Bible close enough, we see many times how His will and purpose prevails. He gives us chances to repent and turn back to Him, but none can contend with God. None can say they are their own god with their own power. When we believe that God is powerful and completely in charge, combined with love and care for us all, it allows us to completely trust in Him.

I woke up knowing that I am where I needed to be. I woke up knowing that if I wasn’t, He is faithful to correct me and set me on the right path. I woke up knowing that I am fine just the way I am. We get so caught up in being so strong that we forget that we don’t need to be. My strength comes from who God is! I can cry, scream, ask questions and share what is in my heart with a God that hears! I can fall apart and trust that He will mend me back together, as if I never was broken in the first place. He places a force field around my heart every time I give Him my pain!

When I am mistreated, I learned how to pray. Not just for my enemies but for myself. I learned that I have a God that will defend me. I use to cry that no one cared enough to ever stand up for me. I was the girl that stood up for everyone else, but was deserted when my time came. I find peace knowing that my God is fighting for me and I don’t have to anymore.

I find security knowing that I don’t really need anyone. Everything I need is in God. People are simply His hands and feet. We live in a needy world where people feel that they NEED people to survive. We must do whatever we can possible to keep all kinds of people around us to feel validated and secure. I know now that in my youth, that there was a wisdom in knowing that I did not need anyone. God has, in his wisdom, led people to me that have been a blessing to me. I cherish all those that obeyed God. This also released a burden from my heart. I don’t need to figure things out. I don’t need to have all the answers. PRAY! Point everyone to Jesus. If Jesus is the savior of our souls and the solution to all our troubles, then He is the one I should point to.

Jesus has fully consumed my life. Of course, there is so much to learn, but I am certain that He will never abandon me. I can finally rest and be free! No more chasing the wind…I find fulfillment in simply being God’s child and wherever He leads me, I will go.